Two Poems
Inventor of Metal Weapons
and what
did you think would happen? That Gods
would behave themselves? I know why good hearts
plague latter day saints: those aren’t
real Gods – they’re saints. Gods don’t
speak from caves or send their sons. We don’t
save, bless and forgive. This shepherd’s farce
ruined everything; for balance came ornate,
magenta hells. Ancients had no use for them: hells
had nothing to rail against. We snorted their innards,
uncorked the bile. We gave land and titles
to the nether. In warmth our sermons gushed
from fools. We never flinched, and never sought
to behave ourselves. We learnt to cut
through man like fruit and honour
violence, when did we
stop looking at things and wondering, ‘Could this
kill a man?’ Or spurn the reddest river? The whitest
braid of skulls? You sent your prayers to petal sniffing
dolls and must now be reminded our history is the history
of violence – why, how and how much; who wields it,
and to what result. It’s in the space massacres clear
that art flourishes, spring returns and first, patriotic
generations unwomb; only in the aftermath of forgotten
slaughter are lovers tempted, maladies cured and pets
gifted to delighted nieces. We know this because we drained
metal into a mould and let it dry. We made sharp things
and celebrated by stamping our feet in a quake
that broke the oceans. Then we descended to ‘save,
bless and forgive’. There was so much blood,
the hissing sun wept in steam. We stole the world. We cut
long receptacles into the whimpering hearts of men
and lay there – like Gods. Village after village, wise men
counseled chiefs to sue for peace as our thunderous
rabble grew. They waited, kneeling at their gates, ready
with a songbook on our valour. We killed them first, as true
fear requires something unnecessary – something that
violates grace; a sport where there’s no telling who could
become the next, wailing example; where they live within
someone’s reckless, personal sense of justice. Our rituals
righted a century of humiliation and struck our dreaded
gong into a new world. And before dismissing this
as the savagery of ancients, be informed we are still here,
bird,
we are here. Ways and means change. Never the gaze. Between
then and now lies nothing – the hoax of time, the hoax
of history. We are here, knitting your wires today. We put cement
on metal and groomed gunpowder. We traveled from muskets
and cannons, sheaths and trebuchets to tanks and rifles, ballistics
and sarin. Where once our hordes had rampaged, trampling
bodies and curdling the piss of our enemies, we now screech
our metal through the air, raining volcanos. Dragons. Torching
skies. Bursting cities. Corals adorn what meets our warships. Deserts
mistake our shells for sand. But what good is it – to speak of bullets,
when the real article looms. A new nectar. A wild efficiency. The true
substance of Gods. In its radiance, we killed ideology, owning the left,
right and centrifuges. The Little Boys and Fat Men. We have finally
learnt to play properly with fire – learnt to play
with proper fire: black fields, moonless,
glass eyes. Dead winter, fluorescent snow. Nothing
moves. Nothing grows. The earth melts down its own
cut mouth. The flaming jump in boiling seas. Bloodlines
go blind, whiten and foam – maimed, misshapen,
soft as paste. Widows bleat. Their faces peel. We kill
the leaves. We kill their beasts. Our plume rises skyward,
tattooing the lying throat of heaven. This is new magic. This
is beautiful. The spear
once plunged ripely. Your forefather screamed.
But you live where plutonium sleeps. And so,
cannot scream. Cannot speak. The whole thing happens
too fast to speak. You can only grovel to the one lesson
that all bandaged histories teach – the God of War
is all the gods and all the gods
come after. And then comes
you. Our inheritance, our
bird. We only ask you
prove yourself – skin
your saints, clot
an offering and tribute
violence, smell
incense, radium flowers
in orbs revealing
all things happen
to find forgiveness
in sullen crypts
when Gods tongue
air with iron.
Hupp
Everyone has
beggar stories
remember, that one time
when a dwarf
on a skateboard
approached one
side, a eunuch
the other? We were caught
between a torso
and croaking lipstick
in a crossfire of pleading
but we didn’t stiffen
or avert our gaze
or squirm fleeting
ordeals away. There is
art here.
Remember when the girl (who
could’ve been so pretty – no just
look closely at her features) was
holding a child who held
a smaller child? Russian dolls
could never compete
with that arresting,
sequential, three-headed
art. We mimed a tickle
at the gurgling snot
and hoped the kohl
would ward. We don’t
discriminate
when it comes to finding
babies cute.
They ambushed us,
splashed grey water
on our windshield,
ragged it dry, without
consent. We didn’t mind. Only
a brute would mind. A bit
uncultured, how he shoos
them away, he doesn’t
offer language, just barks
a loud sound, something
like, ‘hupp!’ We did attempt
to train his sensitivities, to free
doves into his crass heart
but he just scoffs at riddles
like how to ably hand
a coin to an art with
slippers on both, or what
manifesto to adopt in order
to tactfully enjoy a performance
by the Red Light Superjuniors
Thirty Second Theatre Club
of Handstands, Flips
and Squeezing Through
Hoops. This man of ours
has never understood
packets of Marigold
under the seat, or what it means
to discern floor from tar, indoors
from out – he doesn’t grasp certain
humilities befitting the luckier
accidents of birth, but he
doesn’t have to, he only
has to drive. This evening,
there’s a talk
at the habitat centre.